Ode to Insomniac tendencies

Have you ever laid down at 6 a.m.?
your head full of nicotine and caffein -
from cigarettes and coffee,
which you don't remember smoking or drinking?

you can feel it
but wish you didn't have to anymore.
how did you get here?
what kind of decision-making was that?

all kinds of opportunities passed you by
hourly, in fact.
2 o'clock, you still have time?
5 o'clock, home stretch?

you can tell morning is coming
there is no sun,
but the sky is not dark enough to be night -
just by a shade